Results for what? A week ago I decided to do a 30 day retreat, or something. I have the time at the moment to disconnect from the world and I seemed to have the energy to do it. It is like I am fasting for 30 days.
Mainly, as of last Sunday evening, I haven’t looked at any news and haven’t even scrolled on my phone. No NY Times, no Atlantic, no Apple news, no Google news, no Reddit news, no Kansas City Star.
I should first say that last Sunday, I saw what was going on in Afghanistan. And I did something very new to me. I messaged The White House and expressed support for President Biden. No matter how messy, he has the guts to pull the plug on what was obviously a situation that the US should get out of. No matter what happened this week, I still think that.
So, one week without any news. I noticed that, except for Afghanistan which has somehow leaked into my awareness, all other problems have not been on my mind. I don’t know how bad COVID is because I haven’t looked at the map on the front page of the NY Times this week, something I’ve done daily for over a year. I don’t know if the stock market went up or down. I find that events have not been on my mind and I don’t have daily outrage at all the things going wrong in the world. Hence, I’m much calmer. No “outrage addiction.” And I guess that would be the point of this exercise. How do I feel when I’m not focused on the news but on what is right in front of me? I feel calm.
As of yesterday, I am without a part time gig. I am now free to focus totally on the spiritual practices that go along with this 30 day retreat I am completing. I believe that I can emerge from the 30 days with some different neuro-circuits than I went in with. Today and future days are all bright and shiny and clear. I feel eager for each day to come. What a great way to feel.
Today, it being a slightly cool morning, I did a 20 mile run. It went real well. I jogged the whole way. I have an actual marathon race in 3 weeks, so this run was necessary training for that. However, today’s run went so well that I am highly encouraged with my general physical condition. Another way to say that is “pretty freaking awesome!”